73 Tabs
This is what nearly eight months of strangulation survival looks like through the lens of open tabs. I can’t share all of them, as that would compromise both my safety and the privacy of people I love, but I will share several below. My private browser has as many or more, and they are much of the same.
RAINN: Help for Parents of Children Who Have Been Sexually Abused by Family Members
RAINN: Find help near you
Google Search: ear issues after strangulation
Forensic Photography in the Emergency Department
KY Cabinet for Health and Family Services
Leadership Team - SafeSpaceFl
Google Search: ear pain after strangulation
Google Search: ear canal pain after strangulation
Google Search: worsening ear pain after strangulation
Board Minutes from 2005: The New Richmond Exempted Village Board of Education
Danger Assessment dot org
Article: The Silent Epidemic of Femicide in the United States
Article: WHEN ABUSERS KEEP THEIR GUNS; Police Often Miss Red Flags in Domestic Abuse Cases, and the Consequences Are Deadly
Alliance for Hope International
Google Search: investigate domestic violence like a homicide the victims are not much help
Article: Strangulation is the Highest Predictor of Murder
Google Search: can an apple watch be used to track me if it is factory reset
Article: How to Find a Hidden GPS Tracker on Your Car
Google Search: strangulation timeline
Google Search: and i shake shake shake like a leaf lyrics (chapel song)
Kentucky Model Policies - Law Enforcement
Google Search: how do i know my abuser turned in his firearms kentucky
VINE info
VINE brochure
Contact page: Jessamine Co Sheriff
Amazon Link: Nadine Macaluso LMFT PhD, Run Like Hell: A Therapist's Guide to Recognizing, Escaping, and Healing from Trauma Bonds
Bradley A. Campbell - UofL
Justin Karr - UK
Article: US Supreme Court upholds law that prevents domestic abusers from owning guns
Danger Assessment tools
Google Search: can mri show PTSD
Google Search: I have no hope
Article: How Strangulation Affects the Brain; Six things to know about healing after a traumatic brain injury
KY Attorney General
Article: That Spider Smells Familiar
How the enemy within steals an ant colony's scent
Article: Coercive control ‘operates in the shadows.’ Kentucky lawmaker moves to address it.
KY judicial conduct commission
Article: Examining Relationship and Abuse Tactics Associated with Nonfatal Strangulation Experiences Before and After a Protective Order
Alliance for Hope International: Find an Affiliated Family Justice Center Near You
The last ten open tabs, not shared above, reflect the hope, happiness, humor, and friendship I’ve been embracing for the last several weeks. I took steps to stay alive, and then I took steps to protect our lives, and for the first time since September 11, 2020 I am free to walk my own path. When I open my eyes each morning I feel gratitude, not dread. When I go outside I feel joy, not fear. When I put one foot in front of the other on my daily walk I feel found, not lost.
That sort of spider cannot kill me in a way that matters.
Not then, not now, not ever.